I mean.

We all have them.

To quote the great Toby Keith

"I wish I didn't know now, what I didn't know then"

I wish that public education was better.

I wish that love was less confusing for men.

I wish I never left my childhood home.

I wish I could put the pads on one more time.

Oh, what I would do to get on that field again.

I wish I didn't know what it was like to

Watch your parents split.

I wish I didn't know what it was like

To watch someone suffer.

I wish I didn't know what it's like to host a funeral.

I wish that I didn't know what it was like to cry a lot.

I wish I could buy a ticket to Heaven.

I wish I'd never have met grief.

I wish Heaven wasn't so far away, 

So I could go see you today.

I am Sad and Confused

I wonder, why we lose loved ones

I see that there's a reason for everything

I want to believe that everything's gonna be alright

I am sad, and I want to move forward

I pretend that I'm doing fine, but I feel a deep pain inside

I hold on to and look at the memories l often worry about my mother

I cry because I've lost my sister, 

Yet I am an overcomer

I understand that God's got a plan for my life 

I say that I've gotta keep fighting every day

I dream, of being with her again 

I search for the light in the situation, 

and I hope to carry on her legacy

For I am here for a reason

 Why is there pain?

Why is there suffering?

Why do I find myself awake at night?

Why can't I seem to get over this ?

You anger me to the core

You cut the depths of my soul

My life is changed because of you 

And I'm confused forever.

There's a lot of pain 

There's a lot of anger 

There's a lot of bitter

Are my feelings justified?

Who gives this to me?

Is it God,

Or is it at Death?

What the heck ?

 I mean, we all aspire to have one.

Because that's how I wanna be remembered, Right?

Not how I died.

Not going out in a blaze of glory, 

Or going out with my boots on.

I wanna wear out my boots.

I want to have them passed down by generations.

Because, if my boots aren't remembered for loving others,

Then what does a new year mean to my dash.

 Oh the joy of the Christmas, 

The blessings' God brought upon us.

Must we never forget the reason for the season

Must we always remember the feelings 

Must we remember the less fortunate,

The ones down on their luck.

Must we thank those who give to us

Must we always choose to give to others 

Must we watch Christmas Vacation

Must we watch Die Hard

Must we cherish our family

Must we never forget our christmases past, 

Must we enjoy this one in our sorrow, 

Because this is our first Christmas,

Without You.